A day in the life of a mother

This blog is about a day in the life of a frum (orthodox Jewish) mother with small children.

Saturday, May 14, 2005

Flushable Undies

Yes, apparently, underwear is capable of being flushed down the toilet without clogging it. This science experiment was conducted by my almost 3 year old this morning, when, after going potty, and flushing, tells me, It's gone. I thought she meant her pee, so I said, of course it's gone, that's what happens when you flush after going pee pee. Then she says, no, my underwear, it's gone, and points to the potty. It was very hard not to start laughing, but I did my best, then explained to her, that only pee and poo go down there not her underwear. I am still laughing about it while typing this now. Kids are so funny sometimes. They do the weirdest things. I have no clue what mader her put her underwear in the toilet. Ok, I am done laughing now. Time to type about other things.

My family doc called me late friday afternoon. I thought everything was peachy after my ultrasound because the technician said she couldn't see a cause for my pain and late visit from Aunty Flo. Apparently the technician, who has known me ever since pregnancy #2, knows I am a nervous person and didn't want to make me worry until the results came in. My family doc said my lining was quite unusual. So I asked him, unusual how??? and apparently he said it looks like the lining is somehow adhering, or growing into my uterine muscle. I was distracted by my 18 month old who kept picking up the corded phone in the room where I was, and I had to keep taking it away from him. (I was on the cordless)Come to think of it now, why didn't I just take him off my lap LOL. Anyway, he mentioned that I will probably need a sonohysterogram. A more detailed view of my uterus with a specialized ultrasound. I don't want another laparoscopy, and he assured me this can be done without a lap. . I had one laparoscopy a few years ago, after the birth of baby #2, and it was a really bad experience, and the nurse in the post op room was a bitch and forced me to turn over when I couldn't, becuase of the stitches from surgery and didn't believe me when I told her I had a laparoscopy, until she checked with another nurse. She didn't even have the decency to apologize. Then I stupidly ate general tso's chicken when I got home, couldn't stop puking, ended up back in er, and had to have something strong to stop the vomiting. But I digress.. :) My family doc told me, that my OB will be able to explain it better to me on tuesday. The ob I wanted to switch to is apparently going on sabbatical to Israel for a year :~~~( now I have no choice but to be stuck with this doc, as I don't know of any other good ones and neither does any of my friends. they all used the one that is going away. Hopefully this time my ob's secretary did not lose my results. Luckily the ultrasound lab is just a few doors over. I am not going to let her push me around this time. She isn't the one walking around bleeding and cramping for 3 months. Maybe if they did their jobs right the first time when I gave birth in January, this would not have happened, I told them I had a history of retained placenta, and the ob on call did a half assed check and left in a gigantic piece. Anyway, I am rambling again. I asked my family doc, is this cancer G-d forbid, and he told me no, it's not serious like that. (thank G-d) but what about having more kids?? I am worried . How can I be pregnant in the future if my lining is screwed up??? How can they fix this? I know, B"H I have been blessed with 4 wonderful kids, and it is in G-d's hands if I have one more or not. But still, we really wanted to have one more. I wanted to say good bye to the pregnancy, to know, this is the last time I will feel a baby kick in me, this is the last time I will have a baby human in my womb, this is the last time to hear a precious heartbeat in me that is not my own. To share my body with a new life growing in it. To treasure every wonderful moment of the pregnancy, and to say good bye to ever being pregnant again. I am jumping the gun, I know, and my doula told me I need to have faith, and should not worry about things like that. (but I am a worry wart :) so I worry anyway. Anyway, enough rambling. I should just daven that I will be able to have another child. Other people have 5 or more kids and seem to have no problems. Why is my body acting screwed up?? :( I saw the ultrasound of my uterus, and it looked weird, (I have had many ultrasounds over the past 4 years, mostly due to a placental abruption with pregnancy #3 from a bad fall I had) so I know what my uterus is supposed to look like. This was not a normal shape. Why did I believe the tech when she told me I was fine. I should have pressed her with questions instead of saying ok. Anyway, I will find out more tuesday afternoon G-d willing.

3 Comments:

  • At 10:50 p.m., Blogger Mindy said…

    Maybe you shoudl see a reproductive specialist instead of an obstetrician?

     
  • At 10:57 p.m., Blogger Alison said…

    I didn't think of that. Thanks for the tip. When I see my family doc again, I am going to ask him for a referral to one. I am going to see what my ob says on Tuesday and then ask my family doc about a referral.

     
  • At 4:42 p.m., Anonymous Anonymous said…

    or maybe just a gynecologist who specializes in this. i think that i would not waste my time on an average ob when a good gynecologist is clearly called for.

    good luck

     

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